This week has flown by - granted, I'm posting a day earlier than normal just to take advantage of the 'it's a whole new year' thing.
Unluckily for me, I had to spend 2 1/2 days in work seeing to the usual 'year end' stuff that needed taking care of. Then in between I spent the majority of my time packing boxes, constructing the perfect coffee table terrarium, cuddling puppies and taking long hot soaks in order to use up the rest of my festive Lush assortment.
There have been moments this week where I have felt like I have turned a corner, though it has still been a bit of an up and down one. There comes a point when you just have to push yourself to think past things - your feelings may not change, but your outlook has to. I have a tendency to go into my shell when something happens to really knock my confidence, but this time I am making more of an effort than ever to throw myself into things - spending time with friends, starting new hobbies, putting myself out there to meet people - and moving to the city in order to help make achieving all this that bit easier. To start off with, part of me knew that I was doing all these things to try and help me get what I wanted, but now I know that they are just something I need to do for myself regardless.
I knew NYE would be a hard one - spending it with girlfriends - drinking tea, eating tapas and having one almighty heart-to-heart helped ease the waves of unease though. As did my little fish (who I've decided to call Fin), from Laura. She knows things haven't been easy of late - 'just keep swimmin' she said - and that is what I intend to do :)
It's a big wide world out there, and there are plenty of people that want to help you explore it.