It's been a mixed last seven days. On the plus side - yesterday I signed the lease agreement for my new place in Liverpool - moving hasn't been an easy decision for me to come to, but I finally decided it was time to take the plunge. It's all too easy to carry on living in your comfort zone, to not address the issues you know you have and to hope things get better by doing nothing - hence I figured, whatever happens, being closer to friends and to work is going to make things easier, as is being in a new fresh space that I can spend time making my own.
And, in light of the whole 'making things my own' mantra, there has also been quite a bit of retail therapy indulged in over the past few days ;)
Something else I have also been trying to work on is the whole 'mental positivity' thing which, though they are only small steps - I think I have been making some progress with. I've kept up the weekly yoga classes - helped by the fact that Yin Yan have set up lunch time sessions in my office building (timing or what!). And though it's not the easiest thing to talk about - I've also started regular counselling/therapy sessions. I've never been very good at talking to people about crappy things when they happen - internalising everything and keeping it shut away has always been my go to, but this time I think I've managed to avoid that and for that I'm proud of myself.
On a cheerier note - my friend Laura and I went out for Mexican food on Monday. Wahaca has just opened up on College Lane and so we thought we'd give it a go as neither of us have been before. Result? Thoroughly impressed! We went for a mix of starters and street food which were delicious - special shout out out to the sweet potato and the guac and chips - so good!
And then there was Thursday - a bit of a strange one. It would have been Dad's 62nd birthday and so there were a lot of feelings flying around - heightened by the time of year and the festivities going on. It's always hard the nearer it gets to Christmas (especially this year), but it's also nice to hear from so many people that care and that make you realise what a wonderful man he was and how loved.
Things are still far from great, it's going to take time before they feel near to ok again, but eventually they'll be better than ever.